Just a little story to let you know about my guy, and where he is coming from. Honest to goodness this is true.
The other day about 6 o'clock in the evening, a young prisoner that was being taken from a courthouse to a juvenile detention center escaped in our neighborhood. There were police, and dogs and helicopters--the whole works. They looked everywhere and couldn't track him down. On the news it said he was being held for rape, he was 16 years old. At 11pm, according to the news, he still had not been apprehended. I drove down to my moms house, about 1/2 mile from us and made sure she was aware, locked her doors, stayed safe. When I got up to go to work in the morning, I mentioned to my guy how I wasn't sure that I felt o.k. going outside to the van at 2:30 in the morning when the escapee was still on the loose. We have a couple barns nearby, vegetable gardens, plenty of places to hide in the wee hours. He had been sleeping, so of course I woke him up hoping he'd go with me to the car. After I asked him if the kid had been caught, and he told me no, and I told him I didn't like going outside because he could be out there....etc. He had the most eye-opening comment to make. "Turn the big light on." How touching, how telling, how heartfelt. I walked to the van with my finger on the speed dial of my cell phone wondering if he attacked me, would the call have time to go through, and if not, would my big strong protective man even know (or care) that I didn't make it until he got up in the morning. Take it as you will. I have a choice, I can see it as, wow he has so much faith in my ability to take care of myself, or he knows I am so self sufficient that I don't need anyone to protect me or help me, or---and this is probably closest to the truth, he's tired, he doesn't want to put himself out, and if something happened to me, well, he'd get the insurance money, buy a Harley and have the time of his life.
How Sweet, I feel like such a treasure.
