Well, that's over with....

Two years....I think it took almost 2 years, and here I am, Feeling Again, crying for, with my patients family. Maybe it isn't me, maybe it was the family.... But I didn't want her to die...even though her chances are oh so slim for survival, and if she does survive, then there is the Cancer to deal with....

But, Oh, those tear you up inside feelings.... Really haven't missed them, missed them, but I suppose it's good to know that I can still feel them, and that I am not Totally Disengaged from my work.

It's a numb, scary feeling.... thinking that somehow you will never be totally involved again, that you can always stand back and watch, and just Do The Job.

Wow.
Will probably have to examine that a bit. . .